Falling off of the wagon

Well, while the title doesn't mean what people are probably thinking right now, it means something to me.  I am not a drinker, I really never have been, but I am a chubby chick.  I was doing well with my weight loss and health stuff, but I fell off the wagon. 

I think a lot of this has to do with me feeling like I am in stasis while I am in the school limbo.  However, I am jumping right back on the wagon.  I am tired of being unhealthy. 

First big thing- I quit smoking.  I still have a nicotine addiction, but I am no longer using tobacco products to meet this need.  So I have eliminated a big chunk of unhealthy things from my life.  I also got Raven to quit, so I don't even get it second hand anymore.  I am using an ecig and if anyone is interested in the one I have and how to order it, please just let me know.  I'd be happy to share my success with you.  I smoked a pack a day for 23 years, and my ex husband used to beat me severely for smoking.  I finally managed to stop.  I'm so proud of myself for it!

I bought some work out videos and I plan on using them.  I will have to do this at night, after Raven leaves for work because I have to use the bedroom because of the space, and he sleeps during the day.  No big deal, I always felt more like sleeping after I worked hard anyway.  I feel that this is a good thing for me, and something I can actually do.  I can't afford a gym membership, or the gas to drive to one every day.  The videos I got are Gilad, who used to have a show on tv called "Bodyshaping," and for quite a while after I left my husband, I would do the two half hour shows that were on 4 days a week before I went to bed.  Here is a link to his youtube page http://www.youtube.com/user/giladhawaii?blend=7&ob=5  he does speak with a thick accent, but I like the way he works. 

I am also getting to where I am trying to log my meals on Sparkpeople again.  I think I do ok with my diet, but Sparks just reinforces it.  I don't like the way I look in the mirror any more and these are the things I need to do to get back to where I need to be with it all. I think the exercise will also help me feel less trapped in the house.

The heat here lately has been oppressive and I don't do well in the heat.  It shoots my blood pressure up and makes it hard to breathe.  I know people think my house is a meat locker- that's why, I can't do the heat, it will make me have a stroke.  So I enjoy my home cold.  It is my house, LOL! 

So anyway, that is what is going on in my life right now.  I'll post more another day!