Thursday, May 26, 2011

Getting back in the swing

So, I gotta get back in the swing of blogging. It was good for me and I enjoyed it, but I have to get back on track with doing it.  I think it may also help with the funk that I have been in.

So, there has been a lot that has happened since the last time I really wrote.  My surgery went fine.  It went a lot better than I expected and I think I was home by noon.  Most of that day and the next are lost in a haze of narcotics!  It felt like I had to wait forever before they took me back.  They gave me good drugs before the procedure, and apparently I talked too much while waiting for the doctor in the OR and the Nurse Anesthesist gave me a healthy dose of what I already had and totally snookered me.  I know I got Fentanyl and "something to help relax me."  Next thing I know, I was in PACU and I hurt.  Apparently, I am a bitch when I wake up from anesthesia

Later I found out that they cut out two spots in my cervix, each one was at least as big as a penny and 0.7 cm deep.  That is just the clean area that they cut out, I never got to find out how big the spots themselves were.  I didn't know that a cervix was big enough to put 2 pennies on it.

So, I was out of school that day (Monday) and Tuesday.  I had a lot of pain and stayed pretty stoned on Tramadol and ibuprofen.  I did go back to school on Wednesday.  It wasn't bad.  I mean the teachers at the school have always left something to be desired.  The MedSurg teacher this time around was good, but I won't have her in September.  So I went the first week, begged the director to give me an extension on my fees and explained my situation to him.  For those of you who don't know, I have been digging my student loans out of default.  I was almost there.  I would have had them all in good standing so that I was eligible for Title IV funding again on May 22nd.  The director of the school gave me until May 16th.  There was no way that that was going to happen and I didn't have $1600 to give them.  So I signed the papers to withdraw from the program. 

Now before you all freak out, I really only lost those first two weeks of the term.  I will start back on September first right where I left off.  I don't have to repeat the entire first term.  The good news is that I am now eligilbe for Title IV funding again, which means I get my Pell Grant, and if I'm lucky, I will get some cash from the Workforce Investment Act.  I am crossing my fingers for that one.  It will mean that the WIA will pay my tuition, pay for my books, and I get to pocket my grant money to pay rent andbills.  That way I won't have to worry so much about working. 

Those are the two major things that have gone on.  Since I left school, there have been several developments in the class.  Enough that I thought maybe it was a sign that I was supposed to take this term off for a reason.  What ever it is, I really haven't lost anything. 

I am still trying to get Raven back in to school.  I think he has a lot of issues that he is going to have to come to terms with, but he promised me that he was going to start in January. I am going to hold him to that promise.  I have managed to get my schedule switched to just the weekends for school, and now I am off for the summer.  Oh well.  There's a reason why things happen the way that they do.  My classmates made me cry when I left.  No one wanted to see me go, and one offered to take up a pot to pay my fees, and another asked someone she knows to loan me the money.  Needless to say that neither one came through, but I was very touched that I mean so much to people.  I would have never guessed.  I am truly hoping to work some extra this summer and pay off some of the debt I have to my ex, which is a long story.  It hasn't happened so far, but I have faith that it will.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011


I know I'm behind.  I have a lot to catch up on, but I am still organizing my thoughts.  I'm working on it, but a lot has happened since I last wrote. 

Haven't forgotten you!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

The Big Day

Well, tomorrow is the big day.

I don't have much to say, I just thought I should say something.  I'm getting ready to head to bed here in a second.  I did realize something tonight, kind of ironic really.  I decided what I wanted for dinner tonight like it was a prisoner's last meal.  How stupid is that? 

It was a good day.  It was a good dinner.  And I have had a good evening.  At least I don't have long to worry anymore.  If I can manage it, I'll be asleep in an hour.  The next thing will be waking up and heading in.

Ya'll have a good night.