Thursday, June 28, 2012

Cleaning out my closet

For years, I have done what a lot of women do: held on to shit I can't wear.   I went shopping one day last week with my husband.  We came to an agreement:  I would try things on and decide what felt good, he told me what looked good.  This worked out well for us since I practically avoided the mirror, and he is the weird man who enjoys shopping.

It made me realize something.  I am hanging on to the past.  I have the past hanging in my closet and taking up space in my drawers.  I am not the past anymore, I am a new woman.  I have new hopes and dreams, and new goals.  It felt good to be in things that actually fit.

As much as it pains me, I will probably never fit into a size 10 anything again.  But that's ok.  I don't need to be a size 10 to be happy.  I will continue to work on my health, through diet and exercise, and as I shrink, I will be rewarded with new clothes.  Clothes that help accentuate who I am today, not who I was a decade or more ago.

I like the person I have become, and while I have a few items that I am hanging on to, I am cleaning out my closets!  Give me time to be realistic and weed it all out, but, I am facing who I am in the mirror, and I am proud to be me.