Saturday, April 28, 2012

Trying to remain positive

So, I took some photos today, intending to show myself how I was doing with my diet and exercise.  What ended up happening was me feeling badly about myself.  They look exactly like pictures I took last September.  Maybe a little worse.

What I am trying to get through my head is that right after I took those pics, I fell off the wagon, and I put on a lot of weight.  I also wasn't really weighing myself regularly at that time.

I am trying to keep up positive thoughts by remembering, that at my heaviest, i was 242 pounds, and I refused to log it on my Spark People site because I was in denial.  Something had to be wrong with the scales.  Even though they are the ones the hospital uses every day.  I was retaining water.  Something.  Anything.  I had a real hard time with that.

The truth is that for some reason last fall, I put on about 20 pounds in about 3 months.  That's hard on a body.  Anyone's body. I keep telling myself that I have come a long way from 242 pounds, and am now at 228.7 (as of yesterday) and that I need to keep up the good work!

I mean, really, losing 14 pounds is no small feat.  That took a lot of sweat, a lot of good choices, and I can lose even more.  I just have to keep reminding myself, keep up the will power and drive and get off my butt and exercise.

Hey, I got into a size smaller pants yesterday :)  That should keep me going for a while!

1 comment:

  1. I completely understand where you are coming from. I was looking at old pics vs. newer pics and still feel like a big cow.

    And you're right, 14 pounds is no small feat. Before you know it it will be 20 pounds, then 30 pounds and so on until you get to where you want to be. Keep up the good work and stay positive.


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